That is such a typical angsty teenager thing to say, but I really feel that way most of the time. I feel like I’m never going to be good enough at anything. Like I’m not skinny or pretty or witty or anything enough. I have four A’s and three B’s right now and that just makes me want to cry. I’m afraid I’m never going to get in to college. I’m afraid I’m never going to get married. I’m afraid I’m never going to live in a city and be happy. I’m so discouraged with school right now.
I never get enough sleep so I stayed home today and I’m afraid I’m going to fail my geometry test tomorrow which will make my grade drop even more. I’m starting to fall back into my old habits of not caring and I can’t let that happen but I’m just so exhausted. I never sleep enough. I mean, I could sleep right now. I can’t do that though because I have things to do.
I want to cry.